Love and sex and mommy life: Stress, illness and death. I want to run away!

Most mothers go, go, go. However, most parents of either gender seem to manage this busy schedule we face in contemporary American life relatively well. Whether you live in Los Angeles, San
Bernardino, or Big Bear, Southern California has been so extremely hot the last
few days that stress builds up, road rage increases, accidents occur, and
everyone wants to get away and get cool.
Add to this illness, job loss, or the death of a family member and it’s
time to STOP. Note, I didn’t say “slow
down”. I said “stop”.

In my case I have been facing a debilitating injury, and have been under considerable stress. Furthermore recently a dear relative passed away. Between the injury, the death of my family
member, and other family routine stressors I find myself in need of some
introspective stress-free time. But what
to do or where to go when you can’t just take off and spend one year away in
Tahiti?

Due to the fact that my mother is in mourning too, I have chosen to be by her side during this time, and use it as a period of personal healing. I’m hoping that not only does
this time help us emotionally through the grieving process, but also the slower
pace of my mother’s home will help me physically recover and center myself.

My fear is that the world will fall apart during the three week period I am leaving. Literally, I am having anxiety attacks over who will water the roses, throw out the trash, pay
the bills, and change the kitty litter?
What about meals? My kids are old
enough that I don’t need a sitter, but will they even bathe if I’m not
around? My husband thinks I’m truly
underestimating his ability to keep it all under control during my absence. He is probably right. Never-the-less, it’s a huge job I have, and I’ve
never let go long enough to see what would happen if I’m not here.

I will continue to write from wherever I am, and I will post updates on my motherhood codependency. Will the world fall apart while I’m gone? Would your home fall apart if you’re not
there? Write your comments to me below
and check in periodically to read my blog and find out how I’m doing with it
all.

Post your comments below or write to z.eugenia@hotmail.com.